It has been quite a while since I last posted. I apologize for that. Life has been very busy, but what I realize is I was happier posting. I have gone through a difficult time, but hiding doesn’t change that. It actually makes it more difficult.
I have hidden from friends and family, because I am critical of my own situation. I had to learn something I have really known for a long time and that is that we always have to have faith. When you lose faith everything really starts to fall apart.
I finally learned to have faith again and things are getting better. I am doing the work I always enjoyed doing and working on a business venture I have been trying to launch for a few years.
I hope that with my new found faith and help from a good friend that I will be able to finally get this going. I am excited about possibilities again, which is a very important thing in life.
I hope to share this part of my life. Wishing love, good memories and success to all who are on the journey to wonderland.
I am deeply saddened by the death of Dr. Sheik Umar Khan, who passed away today of the Deadly Virus he vigilantly fought. Sierra Leone’s top Ebola Doctor succumbed to the deadly disease after contracting it a little over a week ago. It is time that we all do something to get this horrendous disease under control.
I will be starting a fundraiser to help raise funds for medical supplies and material to educate the people of Africa about the Ebola virus. Please stay tuned and join me in fighting to save the lives of countless innocent people.
A few weeks ago I decided to take Jeremy, my amazing son, to the circus. It had been a while since we had enjoyed something like that together and Jeremy had never been to the circus. I was really excited when I purchased the tickets. I got the best tickets I could find. Our seats were right in the middle, so we wouldn’t miss anything.
Jeremy was with his dad for his summer visit, so I thought it would be special to pick him up for a fun activity. He always misses me when he is at his dad’s for a long time. I called to tell him about his surprise and he couldn’t wait.
The big day finally arrived. I picked him up and off we went. Eric and Jeremy’s grandma joined us. When we got there I bought Jeremy a ridiculously priced program, which came with clown glasses. Jeremy’s little face, which honestly isn’t so little anymore, lit up like a department store Christmas tree. He insisted I fix the glasses right there, before we walked in, so he could wear them.
We made it to our seats right as the show was starting. Jeremy watched in amazement as the clowns and performers did their routines. He was awestruck at the tricks performed by the tigers, elephants, and poodles. He excitedly applauded for the performers. I was filled with joy at the site of the most important person in my world having such a grand time.
At intermission, Jeremy wanted nachos, so Jeremy, Eric, and I made our way to the concession stand, to buy a couple outrageously priced orders of nachos. We returned to our seats to watch the second half of the show, which the ringmaster promised would be even more spectacular than the first. Jeremy ate his nachos and finished watching “the greatest show on earth.”
It seemed like the show ended not long after we returned to our seats. Jeremy again applauded the performers. When we first arrived at the circus a dragon sword caught Jeremy’s eye. He’d asked me then if he could have the sword and I told him he could, but that he had to wait until the show was over.
Jeremy was so polite, as he usually is. He waited without out one word to get the coveted sword. I know it wasn’t easy for him, because he really wanted it the moment he laid eyes on it. We made our way to the souvenir stand and purchased the special sword.
Jeremy was the happiest kid on earth at that moment and I wouldn’t trade that experience with him for all the money in the world. I haven’t been able to take him to do a lot of things like that recently, because work had been a bit slow. In the past, I always made it a priority to go do fun things with my precious child.
Our circus experience ignited a spark in me. It made me realize how important it is to build these special memories. Jeremy won’t be excited about going to the circus pretty soon, at least for a while, when he becomes more concerned with what his friends are doing than spending time with me.
I have to treasure every amazing moment with him. It doesn’t matter how much money I have. I can engage in fun activities and share special memories with Jeremy for free and that is what I intend to do. Everything else will be okay as long as I am rich in love and life experiences.